Tag: Prayer

A Sense of Meaning: Update on My New Normal

Hey friends, thanks for stopping in. My heart is full tonight, so I thought I’d write. There’ve been a lot of things I would have written about the last few months, but the days have been long and full of memories and struggle and meaning. I’d be lying if I said I savored every moment. Truth be told, I’ve had more grueling moments over the last 6 months than I ever did as a mother of one. I’ve felt like a failure as a wife, momma, and home manager (I’m calling it that, okay? I manage a lot, and putting it that way makes it seem more important. It’s not just laundry and dishes. It’s making life peaceful and enjoyable for my family!). I’ve had more guilty feelings than I can count. Mostly guilt over not feeling rosey about motherhood every minute. Being a momma was and is my greatest desire, but that doesn’t mean it’s easy.

So anyway, I was feeling guilty and worthless, so I pleaded with God to help me find the joy I used to feel over mothering babies. It didn’t happen over night. It took soul searching, slowing down, letting go of expectations, and lots of prayer. Tonight I’m truly, madly, deeply feeling the joy of motherhood. I’m trapped in bed by two babies who didn’t want to go to sleep. They finally gave it up, and it’s going to take some Olympic gymnast like moves for me to get untangled and out of this bed! One might be teething, and the other is battling seasonal allergies, and I’m wrapped up in their needs, their precious faces, and the overwhelming sense that I’m right wear I belong.

I hope you’ll commit your struggles to prayer, because the LORD certainly cares and answers in His very perfect, mysterious ways. Whatever you’re walking through, know that nothing good or bad lasts forever. The moments are fleeting. Root your heart and thoughts in God’s love for you, and trust that His plans are truly for your good.

February 2016 Update

Hi faithful readers! You guys keep me going for this blogging/making/inspiring dream I have. How have you been? Is 2016 treating you well? So far, so good in the Dummel household.

On January 1, I wrote about the year to come, including some goals/resolutions. Anyone else making plans or goals for this year? How is that going? As usual, I probably was too lofty in my goal-setting, but I haven’t fallen on my face completely. Quite frankly, I’m just too tired to do ALL of the things right now. That’s the fact, Jack. But I’m pretty happy with how this month turned out.

Because I’m reading so much for Bible study right now, I haven’t kept up on my other books, Desperate and Wuthering Heights. My study of the Tabernacle in the Old Testament has shed new light on my relationship with God, so I’m really okay with putting the other author’s on hold!

I did not do yoga 3 times per week. This is the one thing I really feel like I need to improve on. Tired or not, my body needs to stretch and strengthen. I love yoga and being fit, so I’m not sure why exercise gets the boot when I’m busy. I did exercise more in January than in previous months, but as this baby’s birth is quickly approaching, I have got to get in better shape!

I watched a lot less television this month. Yay! It really makes a difference in my attitude and level of productivity. I do turn on FRIENDS reruns when I need a little noise in the background.

After practicing spiritual disciplines far more consistently, the biggest accomplishment of the last month was making my artwork a weekly priority. If you’ve been on Facebook at all, I’m sorry-not-sorry for blowing up your feed with my most recent projects. My dad taught me to use his miter saw to make wood slices, and the rest is history. As my mom likes to joke, “I’m hooked. I’m hooked. My brain is cooked.” I’ve fallen hard for woodworking, and I can’t see myself going back! I love admiring God’s handiwork while adding my own unique touches.

“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive” – Howard Thurman

Dustin will attest that Bible study, prayer, and creating works of art are what make me come alive. He said he hasn’t seen me this on fire in years. I’m hustling harder after the things that matter to me than ever before…and it’s in a time that clearly doesn’t make sense. I don’t ever do things the easy way…

I’m more tired and sick than ever (because, pregnancy), but I’m pushing forward to make my passion a reality for the first time. I’m fighting hard against fear. I’ve wanted to give up so many times I’ve lost count…just in the last month. But each time, I ignored those voices that tell me to quit, and it’s starting to pay off. I opened my online store, and have made agreements with TWO local businesses who want to sell my jewelry! I honestly can’t believe it’s real some days!

So my goal for February is to keep hustling for the things that matter, my relationship with God, my roles as Wife and Momma, and my heart for artwork.

What will you hustle for this month?